Collective words of dark times

I simply just miss you so much. I feel so lost and I just want to be done with this.

I miss you terribly. I read our old carefree conversations. Where did we go wrong? Will we ever meet? Will we ever cross path again? You are the one for me. I wish fervently everyday that the circumstances were different and we could just meet. I was a brighter person with you than I have ever been and without your light, I am lost. I miss you so much. Please find me, my light.

I am sad and lost. But my friend was right. At least I still have friends. At least I'm not disabled. At least I am living. One day, blammy. We will meet one day however long it will take. I will get better. I will always loke you. I just hope you will still remember me then.

I want time to gather my thoughts.
I burn and I hurt and yet I still have to walk away.
I wish and  I yearn to turn around and yet I still have to walk away.

Some words are ripen with age but some also lose their color.


Words and words they are meant for you in my darkest time. One message of you brighten my world. That is scary. How uninterested I was of this world. Yet you colored it with just a message. It kills me to crave you the way I am and yet I still can't be with you because of my flaws and circumstances.

I'm scared...

Dear my dearest cutie pie,
I am losing my way and I'm scared. I feel awfully lost...
I need you. Please find me

A message from you

Dear bitter sweetie pie,
I can't come back... I want to. I wish to. But knowing that we don't have a future together got me tearing and breaking a little on the inside everyday. I can't imagine being more than friends with you and not having you would be like, it would break my heart to pieces. I like you so much.

I just wanted to hear your voice. I heard your voice and everything about us was back to the light humor on FaceTime, but off it, we are back to where we were.

We had fate to encounter each other on cyber net but we are not meant to be together. :(

This makes me so sad more than you would ever have any inkling about it.

Missing you,

Tan

Your occupation is a robber and your expertise is a heart-breaker

5/3/18

Dear BFF,
Almost three weeks without you even though I am the one cutting us off, but you made me do it. Maybe it wouldn't be such a bad case of a heartache if you simply tell me to go to Hades and leave you alone. I would. You know this time I would. But you made it in a way that I felt so low that I had to do it. You suck. You suck for not caring. You suck for not trying. I am hurting and you think I am being over-dramatic. You don't understand the pureness of a girl's feeling till you missed your only chance at the greatest love of your life and the consequence of your action kept me from the greatest love of my life.
Miss you,
Tan 

I want someone like you but you want someone else

Dear you,
Do you want to be with someone everyday?
I want someone to be there when I needed the most.
I want someone to be there to experience all things and new places together.
I want someone to be there to talk, laugh and argue with but at the end of the day, we would smile, hold hands and cuddle.
I want someone to be there and stay there.


So I heard that this is the remedy for a heartbreak:

• make a list of his flaws
• why it wouldn't work and how wrong he is for you
• establishing who you are 

Moments

Dear you,
There are moments during the day that I thought I would be Ok and my feelings for you would eventually fade as time passes. I would be hopeful then there are moments like right now when I feel like calling for you back. I miss you so much and it kills me to know that you don't feel the same. It kills me to know that I am not worth the distance. It kills me on the inside that I can't be with you and that I was just another girl...
 :(

COCO movie "Remember Me"

On the drive back and the morning after, all I could think about was you.

Remember me

Fight for me as I've fought for you to stay

Remember me 

Miss me as I've missed you 

Remember me

Wait for me as I work to get to you one day 

If only you knew how hard this is for me 

But if we are meant to be, 

It will be.

Cutting you off my life is like ripping my soul out

But staying there waiting for you is like breaking a little of me

till I won't be able to recognize myself 

I never want to face the day where I would come to hate myself 

and blame you for it.

I rather always have fond memories of you 

Truly though, we can both agree that I am no poet. 

I was going to settle for a piece of you but when you went off the grid every so often, it broke something inside me little by little. I didn't want to lose my mind till there was nothing left. So I decided to do what I needed to do, respect myself enough to step away. I always knew no one will ever miss me when I disappeared. What hurts most is that I realize you won't miss me or remember me. 

I want to be able to talk to you so much. But I can't... if you take the first step...