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Tuesday, April 10, 2018

I know so little and I wonder too much

Dear Best friend,
Have a great day even though today is Sunday's loser brother.  Stay fit and inspiring. You seem to have it all together.  You, in a way, rouse me to work harder and grow up ya know.  :)

You mentioned few days ago and it secretly stuck with me. It wasn't the first time that it came up. It's like quicksand that it is finally sinking in the fact that I am an adult now!  I am feeling a little overwhelmed with adulting. Like investment, careers and lifestyle choice ...etc AND I am still learning about myself. It's not like I am irresponsible. I follow the herds and I get lost.  I know so little and I wonder too much. It is because of that I fear to take actions and grow up. I am a kid at heart and I will always carry that childlike wonder in me. I am accepting that fact and it is Ok to me to just be me.  But I'm learning to love myself better and do things at my own pace. I will fall, I will get up and I will start all over again until I reach where I want to be.

Those were my thoughts and my point is best friend I want to have you in long term than just a fling of a few texts for a few weeks or months. You are too valuable. While you are worth that much, I am worth more to me, because I have to live with myself, forever.

Slowly and I will get wherever you are,
Tan

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